求高人帮我翻译下，别用翻译软件，谢谢！

First of all, I must thank you for this oppotunity. I am extremely excited！To be honest, this is my first time to stand on platform and speak in public, on top of that, speak with English. Maybe it's commmon for you but actually I pend it for 7 years. 7 years! you know, I have so many oppotunities like this in this time but eventually gived up.
I feared about embarrassment, failure and mocking. So, as the aftermath, I can only see oppotunities passd away every time, I lost uncountable of chances to achieve a bright future.
But, when new oppotunity approaching, I hesitated again. So some time I really want to abuse myself: What a coward you are! You have already wasted 7 years of youth, can you bear a waste of entire lifetime? No, I can't! I must made it sooner or later, I told myself like this.
So, today, I am here. I really want to appreciate senior Yin Bin, It's him made me know that I could think with this way, live with this way. Every time he inspired me to reconsider a lot when speaking there, then I re-evaluate myself with a fresh angle. Every time I feel I am so corrupted after my re-evaluation. So I really desire to change something, even a little.
At the end, thanks again for this oppotunity, thanks again for your support! Thanks and have a nice day.

First, thank everybody to give me such a chance of speech. I am very excited! To tell you the truth, this is the first time in my life to stood on the platform with English speech. Perhaps you think of that it just one ordinary thing, but I was hesitated in this 7 years! 7 years! I have so many opportunities, but whenever the opportunity comes I hesitated, I am afraid, I am afraid of failure and afraid other people laugh at me.At last, only looked every chance go away from my hands. I don't know how much I lose a bright future.
But when the chance comes once again, I hesitated again. Sometimes I really want loudly scold: how useless are you!
Even the standing in front of the others to say a few words of courage, you have what use! You have to pay the price too.
You waste the seven years of youth, but can you waste of life? Since you waste your life to waste on others
Do you expect? No, I cannot afford to waste! I tell myself: this difficult I would cross sooner or later! So today I stand in here. Actually, I would like to thank here YinBin seniors, he let me know, still can use this way to think, still can use such a way of life. Every time he will let me speak on natural rethinking many things, and then another eye to examine yourself right now. After examining total feel very fall! Then want to change something, even if it is a little.
Finally, thank you for giving me such a chance, thank you to share my feelings! .