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I always thought I can accept to prepare, but when that will break up, a heart painful! Oneself cannot accept to separate, a good heart painful, confusion, why at the beginning give me hope, and now I hate you, take him

I have always thought that they can receive, psychologically prepared, but know when to break up, a heart好痛ah! Not received their original separate好痛a heart, a good confused, why was I hope that now with take him, I will hate you.
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I always thought that I could withstand it, that I was prepared. But when our relationship came to an end... I noticed how foolish I was... I was wrong... My heart wouldn't stop hurting... Finally I realized that I couldn't accept the truth that I was breaking up with you... My heart is bleeding right now...I am very lost... why did give me hope from the beginning then take it away from me? I will aways hate you.

I had been always thinking I could accept it for I had prepared.
But when I really heard about the news, I felt hurt. I start to know that I can accept to seperate with you. It heart me terribly. I am confused why you gave me hope at first and took it away now. I will hate you.